what a frustrating morning.
23 Feb
not sure what i’m doing next, but i’ve got both legs.
it snowed in austin today… big fuss.
got to leave work early.
took a few photos of the snow piled on the ground.
on the bushes. trees. really uneventful.
lounged listening to johnny cash.
made myself a nice mexidinner – made spanish rice out of instant brown rice- don’t judge!
appetite is slowly creeping back after a temporary visit from the stomach flu fairy. barf.
finally getting to listen to a few albums i had yet to acquire- feel like i’m out of the music scene.
and into a life of silent solidarity- not sure how it happened- but i’m working it out.
oh yeah, music.
sxsw 2010 austin tx.
here a few sites to check out for parties etc.
http://showlistaustin.com
http://republicofaustin.com/sxsw-party-rsvps/
http://www.austinchronicle.com/gyrobase/Guides/sxsw?view=party
http://ultra8201.blogspot.com/
http://www.weshotjr.com/sxsw/
http://yourstru.ly/2010/02/16/shake-some-action-pure-ecstasy/#more-3274
http://gorillavsbear.blogspot.com/2010/02/sxsw-2010-mexican-summer-x-gorilla-vs.html
http://www.surveygizmo.com/s3/240508/07342d0339d
http://filtermagazine.com/index.php/rsvp/dickies/
http://i808.photobucket.com/albums/zz1/dancepartyblog/DT_SxSW_BIGupdated.jpg
http://www.iamhighvoltage.com/rsvp.html
http://www.purevolume.com/thehouse
also a torrent for listening to all the bands showcasing at sxsw can be retrieved HERE
hope this helps someone.
20 Feb
talking to animals
not sure if he’s actually a neighbor, or just a friend of one…
…the kind of friend who stays all day, and sleeps over – and brings his dog.
he constantly is on walks with his very antisocial pooch.
she’s a pitbull mix- and growls at anything that moves.
and while walking her- he has conversations.
“remember there’s a cat up there, last time we were here – there was a cat, you remember? do you want to check and see if there’s a cat up there? because there was a cat up there last time! don’t you remember?!”
then when she acts too rowdy – he bends over her – makes her sit. holds her mouth shut
and kisses the top of her nose.
it all seems like a recipe for…
it’s never going to end well.
i’m not an official dog trainer, whisperer or cat expert.
i just know it’s annoying to listen to.
rant over.
i need to get outta here.
20 Feb
don’t settle, it’ll get better.
in the mail today: 3 things.
utility bill : 17.59
electricity bill: 26.17
settlement offer for a car i don’t have: 3,098.65
perfect mail day.
i will pay two of the three bills… wanna guess which ones?
19 Feb
sxsw 2010
i bought my first wristband. not sure if that was a great decision- but it was made.
took off three days of work.
currently am downloading a file that contains music from all artists playing this year.
spent approximately 3 hours after purchase of wristband -researching shows
updating my google calendar and frying my brain bit my bit.
it’s overwhelming how involved in planning i can be within minutes of a split second decision.
this morning i had zero events on my google calendar (mostly because i didn’t use it before today)
to having multiple events each day for 6 consecutive days. scary.
i felt like barfing most of the day- then i quickly committed myself to something so nerve-racking
never been a fan of crowds -but there’s something, almost nostalgic about going to sxsw
eating crappy food(not anymore), drinking stupid beer(not anymore) and seeing how many energy drinks it takes for me to become unhungover- or completely ill from realizing how gross they actually are.
sweating, bike riding, running into old friends, sxsw loveaffair (circa 2008), and finding myself disappointed from time to time- with bands, lines, weather, strangers.
but in the end -it can be an overwhelmingly fun experience – if not only for the people watching.
might post my crazy schedule once it’s almost ‘finalized’
18 Feb
local gluten free coverage… eh.
Health Edge Extra: Gluten Free Diet
Updated: Wednesday, 17 Feb 2010, 11:05 PM CST
Published : Wednesday, 17 Feb 2010, 11:05 PM CSTRecently there has a boom in the number of food products that are gluten free. The sticky substance that binds bread together creates problems for those suffering from celiacs disease and may exacerbate the problems of those with autism.
18 Feb
plane uneasy.
today has been something.
woke up with a hop in my step, made it to the bus stop in time- even after running back to my apt to get my phone (which happened to be in my bag). i wasn’t discouraged.
came to work, made coffee- did some work, made some fliers- updated some info.
then i got word of the plane crash- watched the videos online, heard the students mumbling about it in the hall. and my spirits fell down. someone asked me if it was a terrorist act.. i said no way.
it wasn’t
just a crazy man- with crazy pants, and a crazy agenda.
went near by to a store to pick up things for work- traffic was bad.
which made me uneasy at best. and then we avoided hitting the back of a large truck-
my anxiety took over.
i have a hard time being a passenger these days, i’m the one who now presses my feet to the floor when someone drives to close to the car ahead, the girl biting her lip and hoping not to offend with words and warnings of ‘watch out’ ’see that car’ ‘waitttt’ i hate being that person. i haven’t had a car (control) in 3 years. each day i feel like i’m getting further and further from feeling safe in a car. i can drive, i feel fine- i’m alert and safe- but any other seat- for long drives in traffic – i’m trouble with a seatbelt.
breathing was hard. i opened the window to get air – something was odd about it
i finally achieved a calmer state- got out of the car at our destination- and smelled the burning building
it made me uneasy.
so uneasy.
smelling the after effects of something
so stupid
so selfish
and unnecessary
gross.
glad tomorrow is friday.
12 Feb
lost focus.
i talk a lot about losing focus
and every time i do
i come back to blog
i think i need to focus on bloggin and the rest will follow.
i wanted to blog with substance talk about things i care about
and have a point.
this has gotten out of hand.
so has my eating.
oops
i need to refocus
focus
focus
focus.
in the real world- today is a big day.
graduation
orientation
meditation
celebration
probably will celebrate by cleaning my apartment that has fallen victim to these past few stressful weeks.
7 Feb
this has been mentioned before.
been living without internet in the comfort of my home for almost 2 years now- i’ve had an open connection now and then, and a working computer off & on.
BUT now i have a working mac & an internet connection. woo! the thrill will soon pass, but the comfort and convenience will not.
then i read this: linking internet & depression
i’m not worried- just think it’s funny that i get home- open up the box containing my new usb port that links me to the internets, load the software, open up safari and see that article within minutes.
note. excitement still is in full force. depression level- low.
7 Feb
puppybowl sunday.
forget the superbowl. today is dedicated to puppies, kitty halftime shows & bunny cheerleaders.
oh. & nachos.
