currently making animal free, cruelty free, unbleached, unbiased, fruit fallen from the tree, made with the purest of love banana nut bread and reminiscing.

every year mid march thousands and thousands crowd austin for sxsw – music and film festival to see and be seen- and every year since 02 i’ve been one of them, planning my route, packing my lunch – where when who has free beer.

but this year i regret i will not take part as much- 09 is a year for cut backs and a year for actually having to work 8-5 during the day shows. i will take part saturday day/night but that is probably the limit to my exploration.

good bye: free beer, free shows, sweating in public, waiting for hours when a show cancelled, over priced beer when free beer ran dry, overpriced food, disappointment of seeing someone i love & realizing they suck live, waiting for hours for a film that ‘sells out’ when you’re next in line, and hooking up with complete strangers- and never having to see them again.

ah, time to grow up and realize the disappointment before it can even manifest and occur.

such a weird forum.

i sold a ticket to a show today- to a girl i never spoke to – we just arranged to meet in front of a bath & body works in a strip mall.

but in order to get to that point i had to read a lot of emails, be disappointed by a no show- and figure out if any of the emails were just robots satisfying their need to be roboty and compute.

in the end, it all worked out- we both nervously chuckled at the fact we were swapping ticket for cash in a poorly lit shopping center.

i’d do it again.

very successful at smoking, very unsuccessful at quiting

but, it’s been hmm almost a month now- and i can honestly say i’ve had- let’s see about 4 cigarettes (an estimation really from a drag here & there)

i’m trying to quit. i want to quit. i should quit. i notice the saved money- oh i notice every dollar saved!

i also notice the fresher air & my clothes that smell like fabric softener! even at the end of the day!

i smoked a pack a day at one point- then over the past year i’ve knocked it to a pack a week- now hopefully none a day/ none a week. i’ve been strategically quitting for a year now- without planning a strategy.

that’s how i do things- i have no plan, i do something – then realize the plan later and claim it, it is mine after all. my unprepared, successfully executed nonplan.

i usually fail at blogging.

i never update

i rarely log in

when i do log in i delete

but i promise this time will be different

just like the last